This book is about surviving grief, and charts a journey of exceptional love. Now, aged 77, the burden of ambition has left the author and she has, with the help of close confidantes, reconfigured her life.

Petal Ashmole Winstanley grew up in Perth, Western Australia with two great loves: her mother and classical ballet. Spurred on by her natural talent and ambition to dance, she made the voyage on the SS Canberra to London in the swinging ‘60s—the start of a vibrant career encompassing the glamour, global travel and trials and tribulations of a life on the stage.

Her journey has been one of creative fulfilment often offset by deep sadness and loss: that of a longed-for baby, and the ultimate grief of losing three husbands. Petal speaks with gut-wrenching honesty of the brutal circumstances leading to each of their deaths, and the heartbreaking aftermath of a grief that would not ease. Repeated hospice experiences allow her to share an intimate knowledge of what happens before, during and after death—and have made her an advocate for early AIDS and cancer detection, and a fierce believer in Dignity in Dying. Sometimes shocking but frequently funny, her story of sorrow is peppered with optimism as Petal recounts how, even at the gates of hell, she found the strength to get up, dress up and show up, sporting a dash of red lipstick.

Cover photo: Lynne Wake

Available online from 1st May 2024. Preorder now on Amazon.

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